Mercy's Calamities

  Walking away, all that I'm taking with me are the lessons,wisdom,true moments of connection and being seen and accepted. I will be grateful to myself for letting myself open up to the possibilities,to trust again. I will not hold anger or judgement that I was wrong; understanding will lead me to forgiveness. I will be strengthened by the courage I showed, inspired by the experience of hoping and dreaming. Then, I will let all the rest go . Den and Me 

It's all fine to say, under the Hollywood lights... I don't feel like the world collided with my deepest dreams, of being seen and loved. Belonging and at home inside of our love. What if... I am only just living a beautifully shot cover story? Glitches are flicking centre screen...  My eyes or the story. Who's to know but God. Cover Story's are for a lost heart.

On the edges of my life, I see normalcy humming it's cathartic Melody People walk by and I smell the fulfillment of their lives...it is the most viscerally satisfying fragrance one could hope to inhale Every day that I wake up,I'm never certain Even should the world around me be calm That I will be facing a day with enough strengh where my heart has the courage to sift through My memories of pretending to be a part of the Golden mean, my moments of true personal triumphs known to only me , and so many reminders of how I'm supposed to be. And come up with a motivational game plan to survive this isolation on the periphery of life. Could I just suppose to be just like this and work on the kinetics of my heaving of mind and heart before my soul evaporates to a veneer of some weird sort of human condition I cannot even begin to imagine. As Time passes there is a terror that is seeping in around my mind, darkening the hope light in my heart, changing the opaci...

When He smiled at my ugly mess He gave me a certain sense of dignity I didn't deserve. From that moment my soul has been surrendered lucidly, madly,  Completely.